On the way home I suddenly remembered I was supposed to do the new therapy appointment today... and it was now over. Crud. I totally forgot. That's two appointments and two no-shows on my part. Sorry therapist!! Called and left another apology message. I'd been feeling grand, even though I was physically kaput, because I'd managed the shelves without totally collapsing. AgtOrange helped me into the shower and I crawled into bed for nap number three.
Sat down and watched Hellboy while eating pizza. AgtOrange made me a fruit smoothie so I could try it out with whey powder added. I was having problems with opening things. My hands are shot. Whey powder is disgusting, it has a nasty aftertaste, but it's good for me so I could probably get used to it. Going to cut back to a half-scoop though, because the full scoop is just too much gross to handle, even with sugar added. We'll add protein/amino acid shakes to the list of random cures I have tried.
So I'm wAAAAy off track on my new life schedule, but it was a special occasion. And it's a good thing I put Saturdays as rest days because I'm not going to have much choice tomorrow. Even with a pain pill, it hurts to type this, and my back and feet and jaw are killing me. I can't even nap properly because I'm so uncomfortable. I feel like I have the flu almost, my body hurts like that today.
Comprehensive List of Tasks
- run = no
- stretch class = no
- therapy = no
- grooming = yes
- nap / rest = yes
- Spanish = no
- meal = had a smoothie, bunch of fruit, and a meaty almost cheeseless pizza
Medication = yup, the only good thing I can absolutely say today is I'm back on track with my medications
Sober / No Compulsions = yes
TOTAL SCORE = 5/14 = 36% or 57% if you give bonus points for the work at HIPS
It doesn't bother me when AgtOrange says, "you'll get better" because we both know what he means when he says it. I felt 'sick-person obligated' to say, "NO I WON'T" but he gave me a look and said, "I MEAN, you'll feel better than you do today." And I knew that's what he meant, so it didn't frustrate me like when other people say it. The worst version of this, of course, is the "I thought you were better."