Jadxia

The following letter was sent to the Voluntary Human Extinction Movement via their Myspace page. VHEMT supports the extinction of Humankind through voluntary non-breeding.

Dear Cult Leader,

I know what you're all about and you're all about everyone killing themselves. You don't like it when people have babies, and that's okay and everything, but you've failed to consider immaculate conception. If you don't remember, Our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ was the result of a virgin birth. You may have written this off as a one time thing, but let me assure you that this is occurs more often than you may think. I'm not telling you how to do your job or anything, I just wanted to warn you that the population could be increasing ten-fold due to immaculate births. This is more of a problem than you could ever know. Children without fathers are everywhere and you have no idea how many of those whose father is God.

Liz Phair
Victoria Beckham
Redman
Nick Hornby
Maynard James Keenan

All of these socialites have one thing in common, can you guess what it is?

You're welcome.

This was the reply from the movement.

I knew it!! I knew that guy from Tool was too cool not to be a son of god. I appreciate you warning me about this scourge of reproductive choice, I honestly hadn't thought about it at all. I think we should spend some serious resources looking into immaculate contraceptive, don't you?

Really, it's better than aborting a child forced upon a woman by god. When you think about it, immaculate conception is a form of rape, maybe even worse because there's absolutely nothing you can do to protect yourself from it.

Thanks for the food for thought!

This exchange was so funny it got posted to the VHEMT list. I recieve the list as a 'supporter' but not a 'member', the difference being I believe in population reduction rather than extinction. For more information, visit http://www.vhemt.org/

I wouldn't compare it to a runner's high. You know the sensation, where you are moving not quite as fast as possible, but you continue to keep your head down and motion forward, until everything is on fire, and then hard to move, each leg made now of brick instead of muscle. Somehow the pain drifts, and you are paced out, still doing the exact same motions past exhaustion point, only the force of a steady ingrained habit pulling you on. You have no idea how this is possible, or for how long you can keep this up, but also, you have forgotten how to stop.

Because TGV is in Oklahoma, the state has decided I should pay their taxes. Bastards, I don't owe them a dime (and I PAID my Virginia taxes, thank you very much). Pops gave me money, and a good chunk of it went toward this problem, then minutes for the phone (which is already out) and then the carousing afterward. Not the most brilliant usage of funds, but necessary. My largest regret is it caused me to miss yoga on Thursday.

Slept a shocking amount at TheCrypt, then woke to Morgue trying to learn "People are Strange" on the guitar. Worked the DanceStudio and then TGV, but was soon exhausted again. I fell asleep at 0200 and woke for the last time at 1600, feeling slightly ill and with the beginnings of a nasty sinus headache.

But these are just the things that happened on the outside. The motivations run deeper and further and stronger by far.

On Tuesday night, both Commando and Loopy sent me emails -- within two hours of one another in fact. My heart is still reeling from the impact. I have learned not to take Loopy seriously, by his nature anything that comes out of his mouth is simply wishful thinking and will probably not be backed up by any action. It's sweet still, and has the power of making my heart jump even so, but I no longer believe what he says.

Then last night, I got a signal... no, THE signal, from the Great Breath I AM. In words, in human words, it translates to roughly "It is Time" or maybe even "Now". Although this fails to convey any meaning, listening to just what pops up in words makes you want to say, "time for what?" when I already knew the answer. It is time to stop dicking around and begin the process of doing what I'm supposed to be doing. It is time to prepare myself for the next step, which will unfold and be revealed to me.

The force of the sensation was so strong my eyes went mildly bloodshot, it hit my whole body in meaning and the words were more of the residual that got left behind. I looked in the mirror and was surprised to find my nose wasn't bleeding. It is time for strength, it is time for me to make ready, it is time for the first steps, it is time. I heard this in one word that sang, on a vibration so low my skin tingled -- for me 'God' is really THE GREAT HUM, not so much an Om as the steady "Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm" that follows.

I have been impossibly tired, impossibly weary ever since. I have eaten perhaps a gallon of homemade chili and for some reason am still starving. I have slept some 16 total hours of 20 and am somehow still exhausted. I have struggled and raged with an internal debate that was since solved. It was a calling, but the invisible voice of others causes me to have doubts.

Am I crazy? Possibly, but I still must act on this. The call was simply too strong not to and I do believe, there is nothing in me that doubts. In the words similar to Prot on the movie K-Pax, "I will believe I may be crazy if you entertain the notion I may talk to God."

Will anyone believe me? Probably not, but I believe me, and must place myself in total faith regardless of unbelievers.

Is there really a Satan? Am I being misled by demons? Is this just something I dreamed up that is unGodly? This one was a toughy. There are so many Biblical references saying women should be under the authority of a man, that woman cannot be leaders and teachers... or so I thought. While I don't believe in the Bible personally, I know it has much information that has really been gathered from true wisdom... just often distorted a little by translations and men.

I Corinthians 14:34-35 (Apostle Paul)
Let the women keep silent in the churches; for they are not permitted to speak, but let them subject themselves, just as the Law also says. And if they desire to learn anything, let them ask their own husbands at home; for it is improper for a woman to speak in church.

This one gave me a problem, it's quoted so often. I looked deeper, and found enlightenment. Paul, in his habit of teaching, always follows the same format of a) state the problem, b) question it, c) provide the truth. The above quote, when taken out of context, is Paul STATING THE PROBLEM. The Law he refers to is the Oral Law, which was basically the customs of man in that time period. If you actually read the next passages, you find the true answer.

I Corinthians 14:36
Was it from you that the word of God first went forth? Or has it come to you only?

Here we see him questioning, as was his pattern of speech. And next we see the answer:

I Corinthians 14:37-40
If anyone thinks he is a prophet or spiritual, let him recognize that the things which I write to you are the Lord's commandment... Therefore, my brethren, desire earnestly to prophesy, and do not forbid to speak in tongues.

(Back then, women were forbidden to speak in tongues. It was said that they 'faked it' and only men heard God.) In fact, Paul had women teaching in his ministry, for they were highly praised.

Click here for more on Women's Role in Church.

I heard God, I have no doubts. And while he didn't say anything more enlightening than I need to get my shit together (which I already knew ages ago), when the Great Mm spoke one word it had more power than weeks of any self-oratory. I am not strong enough to hear anything of teaching value, but those words will come, and now is the time for me to prepare that strength within myself, lest teaching the Word destroy me.

I hear, I follow, I am.