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Wed, Aug. 8th, 2012, 11:42 pm
Slowtime Check-In Day 13 of 14 (Wednesday)

So this slowtime schedule never really worked out, but heck it's just one more day. Really I scheduled too many things I don't like to do in it, so even though they were sedentary they still didn't get done. But that doesn't mean I've been lazy, exactly. Okay, I've been a little lazy. I'm entitled. Especially since after yesterday's hours spent in the bathroom, my eyes are puffy, my sinuses feel like crap, and I think I'm either getting a headcold or running a fever. Wish I could find my thermometers I just bought. The only constructive thing I did today involved setting up the new spice jars while watching Robert Thurman talk about Buddhism.

Comprehensive List of Tasks

  • grooming & wound care = nope, I spent over an hour in the shower last night, how dirty could I have gotten in that time?
  • eat healthy meal = yes
  • Spanish = no
  • coping = no
  • paperwork/emails = yes
  • Movie review = no
  • fun reading = yes
  • meditation = yes, if you count the Buddhism program as a valid replacement

Medication = yes
Sober (no drinking/drugs/cutting) = no, I made Jello shots, of course I had to try a couple
No Compulsions = um... how compulsive is setting up the spice system? Does it count if it is beneficial? Crud. Okay so maybe making a Pinterest board for a potential Jello shot party was a little compulsive. I've been on there a week and I have 12 boards already.
No Strenuous Acts = success
Plenty of Fluids = success

TOTAL SCORE = 4/15 = 27% like I said, I've felt sick all day today

Today's Revelations

If you pull someone out of the closet, you are a douchebag. Up until now, I've always been into the gossip of 'which celebrity is gay' but now I think if you out someone and they are still hiding it, you're an asshole. Sure, it would be nice if everyone could be honest about themselves. In a world of roses and rainbows, outing someone wouldn't mean anything... but then people wouldn't be 'in the closet' to begin with. If someone is hiding a facet about themselves, they have a reason for doing so. Just because a person is in the public spotlight doesn't mean they don't have a right to privacy. Some would argue otherwise, but I disagree. Let people choose to share what they want to share; if that's everything, fine. If it's not, that's okay too. And accept what they share with graciousness and gratitude, because they trust us (whether it be a friend or the public at large) to respect them in their choices, whether we believe in those choices or not. Even as I do all this rambling, even as I share all this about myself with the world, outside of the Internet I am trying to learn to listen better instead of talk, trying to learn to respect people and their rights more, instead of discounting their fears and confusions. And it seems the more I share online, the more I can treasure and value another person's sense of privacy, the more I understand that everyone is different, and what works for me (honesty and openness) may not work for someone else.

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Thu, Aug. 9th, 2012 04:22 am (UTC)

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